Sorry :/

Sorry i have been so slack, had a mad few week, i think everything is getting better now although whilst writing this i am sat with my legs in the air because my feet hurt and stop me sleeping :/

Had an amazing day in scarborough it was really good fun and I swear i know some of the most amazing people ever!

I love stuff like that because it reminds me that not all people are shit and some people really are genuinely nice, and don't lie or make up stuff that they know isn't the truth or gossip about others personal lives.

Bit confused though because i like this boy. . .

. . really like him like so much it hurts. which sounds MASSIVELY desperate but it's like i've always been so frightened of having such feelings because my parents (dad especially) are quite protective of me, but it's like he just makes me so happy, I hope he feels the same although i can be a bit confused at times and i know im rubbish and apologise for everything, i also hope he isn't just using me because i would be heartbroken (not that i think he would just because thats what im generally used to) argh. i hate feeling like this, makes me feel like a right girl!

much loves x x x x x

Aww I'm just being a fanny i know and am currantly listening to fast car by tracy chapman so if you listen to that whilst reading my essay it will have more of an effect hahaha :D

So yeah :/ . I'm a pussy!

RAGEGASM!

That's it. . .

Right there. . .

the most beautiful man in THE WORLD!!

I am so happyy and smug me lovelys as I managed to get tickets to the free rage against the machine gig!! And i completely expirienced my first PROPER ragegasm! It is going to be insane unless I like die of a sex coma when rage come on

AHH its going to be amazing!

I don't really know what to say at the minute as I'm feeling ratherr shiite. It may just be hormones yanoo but its awful. I'm sick to fucking death with college and don't really know where I stand with anything and any one.

The course has sort of put me off working with animals in the future ithink but I just sorta don't know where to go from here :$ I've now become obsessed with the idea of helping farmers in mexico which would just be insane, but i think I doubt that would happen

God daymnit i need someone to teach me spanish!!

SO YEAH! i'm really wierd and sick of everythiiing. . .WHAT DO I DO??! (answers on a postcard purlease! )

Much loving xx

Ho Hum. . .

Good evening! How are you doing? I'm quite sleepy today, Again don't know what to write so here are some general facts about myself (Everyone must secretly enjoy talking about themselves sometimes)

1. I have a freckle on the palm of my right hand
2. I play the ukulele
3. I lost my first tooth eating a hash brown in macdonalds
4. I lost my second tooth when someone hit me in the face when doing ballet ( It was coming out anyway but it was a good effect)
5. I used to be reaaly frightened of carrots so my mum and dad would put them on top of the video player to stop me putting my fingers in it.
6. Now I just have a general phobia of foods with awful textures such as cauliflower, cucumber and grapes
7. Infact I don't like anything that feels wrong, such as them pointless buttons you get on jeans scraping along something or feeling the bottom of the sink whilst washing up
8. I get upset if i look at old photos of myself and family for a while
9. I have a thing for uma thurman
10. I love my cats
11. . . . and my dog
12. . . . and my chickens
13. . . . and my bunny
14. I would do anything for my friends
15. So afraid of confrontation and telling others how i feel
16. Addicted to reading books, red bull and marsbars
17. I reaally reaally like someone, which is mad because i havn't done for such along time, so i'm quite frightened now
18. I FUCKING hate it when my sister steals my things
19. I Love the fact that I can class people as people i "used to know" now Because to be honest its better that way
20. I know who my proper friends are, although I wish i had the balls to tell people when they're being a dick
21. I get on with boys better than girls, ALTHOUGH the girls i do get on with are the most amazing ever!!
22. I hate bad grammar and when people do this "Iaa bbz hw ya doiin Lyk? miss uu ldz hunnii ily xoxoxoxoxox" I just want to punch people in the face that do that . .
23. I hate being called babe, (unless its by a close friend, then i don't mind)
24. I hate it when people say they'll keep in touch with me and the fucking don't!!
25. I love seabrooks prawn cocktail crisps

Oh dear Sorry to go on, I'm just IN AN ARSE!!!!!!!!!! XXX

20 Reasons and distractions which make me not do my assignments:

As you can probably tell I'm distracting myself from assignment work:

1. Writing my blog
2. Deciding to organise my folder WHICH I have neglected and not done for months, why should i do it now you ask? because i have an assignment to do of course!
3. A very gorgeous lovely inside and out boy comes on facebook and I talk to him, although on normal occasions i'd be a fanny and too scared to
4. I decide to delete all my hundereds of junk emails
5. I look for websites on buying marmosets, something i could never afford or do
6. I watch videos on youtube of marmosets and various other cute animals
7. I listen to songs i would never normally listen to
8. Read a book i have read many times before
9. Phone people i don't need to phone
10. Go to the pub
11. Practise my ukulele
12. Sleep
13. Complain that i can't do my assignment, of which the time spent complaining could actually be used to work out how to do it
14. Work out which clothes make me look fatter than other clothes
15. Walk my dog
16. Put songs on my phone/mp3 player
17. Search pointless things on google e.g "How to tell if my cat is interbred"
18. Try learn the alphabet bacwards again
19. Find out new conspiracy theroies and backmasked songs to frighten myself with
20. Read all my old comments on facebook

So there you go :) x x x

Awhh Dear

Hiyaa! Ohh I'm well sorry for being lame at updating my blog, but here I am, almost a month into the new year. . I also think i probaly wouldn't be writing this if i didn't have a really hard assignment to do for tommorrow :P, I feel really quite good at the moment though, Albeit a little bit concerned for someone but I'm avoiding getting involved. . . . .. ... . . . . . .. Phone rung then . . . . . . . . . . But no i feel lovely except this stupid cold i have that just wont shift :/

I alsoo reaally like someone :) He's lovely, although I'm worried that he doesn't like me back, even though I'm probly being silly.

Urghhh There's so much to say!! Like me and tom and Sharpe went to meet the hairy bikers not the friday just gone but the one before, I like to remember it as good day but it was quite shit really, sharpe and tom were lovely, its just we had to queue for like an hour and a half, sharpe had a headache. . i was bored. . ( untill i heard them talking then i got too excited :D ) But THEN RIGHT . when we FINALLY got to the front of the queue,!! >:( THIS STUPID BITCH was all like :O You havn't got a book to be signed?! THERE WERE NO CHUFFIN BOOKS LEFT!!! AND Stupid bitch Seemed to forget that it was her job to organise the books of which she only had ordered 100 grr!!!! So She was like well you can have a photo with them but be quick :O So we did right, but the picture was so blurred it was as if the lady who took it had fallen over whilst taking the picture (Yep thats right, we didn't even get to take our own picture!) Was a load of balls! URGH!

Although after my recent trip to waterstones, my previous crippling book buying habit has returned god damnit! Why can't i just use a library??! I think it's because I like to actually own the book rather than have a time limit to read it, I know it's quite lame but i also think I'm quite a book collector, Its like with these i-Book things you get, even if i had an iphone I'd never use it because i like the feeling of owning a book rather than just having it there to read.

Anywayy thats enough of me ranting for now, I should probly do My assignment, Lovee yooou X X X X X X X X

n'awww

Helloooo, howayoou?? I've been in such a good mood all week and still am, I went to sara's last weekend which was lovelyyyyyyy :) and the week has been good, except animal health. . . which was a shit , but thats handed in now pheww and i wont see it again till i refer :/ but im not fussed about that :) so now im just chillinn! i was going to the NEC for the motorbike show tomorroww but i decided not to as i have to go to college, which is alriight, i'm not bothered. . . But yeah so things are fab, sorry to be boring and not have much to write but yeahh. speak soon :) x x x x

Lovely :)

Hiya howayoou?? I'm fine thanks for asking. I've had a good time lately, i went to see the lancashire hotpots the other week which was fab :) i could marry each and everyone of them :D

And now im just sat here with a cup of tea writing this. I've been a bit disapointed today though, i can't believe belle de jour revealed her true identity :O and it was also quite disapointing really, She doesnt look at all what i expected, and she's actually a scientist named Dr brooke magnanti, And... I don't know really.... just disapointed.

Not that it's going to change my life or anything....ANYWAY

Ooooooh i am excited for this weekend. im going to scarborough again which should be very fun :D

I'm trying to think of things to write about.....

Oooh the folk night was good last night :) i had a fab time :D :D

Well i'd best be off, my kittens are going mad and may wreck the place :O xxxxx